{"id":12,"date":"2007-06-07T12:41:10","date_gmt":"2007-06-07T19:41:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/the-best-lies-part-one-leap-of-faith\/"},"modified":"2008-05-05T22:22:19","modified_gmt":"2008-05-06T05:22:19","slug":"the-best-lies-part-one-leap-of-faith","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/the-best-lies-part-one-leap-of-faith\/","title":{"rendered":"The Best Lies, Part One: Leap of Faith"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>ADULTS ONLY<\/p>\n<p><em>Contains explicit male\/male sex.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Pairing: Mulder\/Krycek<\/p>\n<p>Summary: A DNA test sends Mulder on a quest to discover the truth about his  sister, leading to a mysterious database and an old enemy. Follows &#8220;Anasazi.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Disclaimer: The X-Files is copyright Fox TV, Chris Carter, and Ten-Thirteen  Productions. No infringement is intended.<\/p>\n<h3><em>STRATEGO<\/em><\/h3>\n<blockquote><p><em> I win again.<br \/>\nOh, don&#8217;t be such a baby, Sam.<br \/>\nOf course I win. I&#8217;m older than you.<br \/>\nStronger. Smarter.<br \/>\nOne day you&#8217;ll catch up. Till then,<br \/>\nI&#8217;ll protect you. Watch out for you.<br \/>\nThat&#8217;s what big brothers are supposed to do.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Want another game?<br \/>\nDon&#8217;t listen to them, Samantha.<br \/>\nFighting is what grownups do.<br \/>\nIt&#8217;s nothing to do with us. And anyway,<br \/>\nI won&#8217;t let them hurt you.<br \/>\nOf course I promise. Now let&#8217;s play.<br \/>\nWith me, you&#8217;re safe from everything\u00e2\u20ac\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Except losing another game of Stratego. <\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><a title=\"Stratego\" href=\"https:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/06\/stratego.gif\"><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/06\/stratego.gif\" alt=\"Stratego\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Special Agent Fox Mulder wadded up the piece of paper he&#8217;d been doodling  on, leaned back in his chair and tossed it across the room, where it struck  the rim of the waste basket, bounced off the wall, and fell into the trash.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Two points,&#8221; he announced.<\/p>\n<p>His partner, Dana Scully, sat across the room  at her own desk, chin in her hand, chewing on the end of her pencil. She looked  up, took the pencil out of her mouth, and said, &#8220;What&#8217;s the score?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Three hundred twelve to a hundred ninety-six.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She frowned slightly, then tore a sheet of  paper from her notebook, crumpled it up, concentrated for a moment, then launched  it towards the waste basket. It arced across the room and fell smoothly into  the basket. &#8220;Hundred ninety-eight.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder grinned. &#8220;Too bad you&#8217;re so short. You  could have been a power forward.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She allowed a slight smile. &#8220;What&#8217;s your excuse?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder&#8217;s cellular phone rang. Still grinning,  he pulled the phone from his pocket and switched it on. &#8220;Mulder.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mulder, I&#8217;ve got something. You have to see  this.&#8221; Langly&#8217;s voice was urgent and conspiratorial.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What is it?&#8221; Mulder leaned casually back in  his chair and loosened his tie. To Langly, everything was a conspiracy. No  need to get excited.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Not on the phone. How soon can you get here?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder exchanged a look with Scully. She lifted  an eyebrow curiously. Mulder just grinned.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m working, Langly,&#8221; Mulder said into the  phone. Scully&#8217;s look of curiosity turned into a knowing smile.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mulder, you really want to see this. Make  it as soon as you can. Come alone.&#8221; The connection was severed abruptly. Mulder  hung up his phone, sighing.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What did he want?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Was it just Mulder&#8217;s imagination, or was there  a suggestion of worry in Scully&#8217;s tone? Mulder knew she didn&#8217;t care for the  men at the Lone Gunman; she thought they were irresponsible and likely to  get Mulder into trouble. She&#8217;d been more than usually protective of him lately.  Well, that was natural; he&#8217;d just spent three weeks in the hospital after  nearly being incinerated in a burning train car. He&#8217;d been just as protective  of her after her abduction last year. &#8220;He wants to show me something.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She grinned. &#8220;Something in latex?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He returned her grin, shrugging. &#8220;He wouldn&#8217;t  say. It&#8217;s probably nothing, but\u00e2\u20ac\u201ddo you mind if I go over there? We&#8217;re not  very busy right now.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She nodded. &#8220;All right.&#8221; But she watched him  with thoughtful eyes as he shrugged into his jacket and left.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;This is Scully&#8217;s blood, which I extracted from the handkerchief you gave  us after she turned up in the hospital last year,&#8221; Langly said, holding up  the small vial, filled with pale, pink-tinged liquid. He pushed his heavy  black glasses up onto the bridge of his nose.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder nodded. Frohike sat at the desk with  his arms folded, staring somewhere to the left of Mulder&#8217;s shoulder. Byers  stood leaning against a tableful of electronic equipment, watching Langly  with an inscrutable frown. Neither said a word. Mulder found their grim silence  a bit unnerving. Usually, the three of them nattered on like a bad vaudeville  routine.<\/p>\n<p>Langly held up another vial, this one of viscous  red. &#8220;And this is the sample of your blood you gave to me after your experience  with LSDM. Well, since I had them both, I decided to run a DNA comparison  on the two blood samples.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder blinked. Since I had them both&#8230;. Definitely,  a man with too much time on his hands. But he couldn&#8217;t quite bring himself  to make the obvious quip. He was feeling too uneasy about this whole thing.  &#8220;And&#8230; ?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Langly handed him the readout. &#8220;Can you read  DNA profiles?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder studied the report carefully. The two  side-by-side strips, vaguely resembling bar codes, were his and Scully&#8217;s DNA  patterns. Lines ran between the two strips, connecting similar patterns of  genes. Numbers covered the margins. &#8220;What does this mean? Fifty percent match?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It means that Scully&#8217;s your sister.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder tried to laugh, and failed. &#8220;That&#8217;s  funny, Langly. Now are you through wasting my time? I&#8217;ve got work to do.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Langly just shrugged. &#8220;No joke, Mulder. DNA  doesn&#8217;t lie.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder looked to the other two for help. But  Byers just stared at him, and Frohike wouldn&#8217;t even meet his eyes. &#8220;It has  to be a mistake. There&#8217;s no way Scully could be my sister.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Well, she could also be your mother. Or your  daughter, if you like that better. I ran the tests twice, and the results  were identical. Unless the blood samples aren&#8217;t what you said they were&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Well, you took my blood yourself. And Scully&#8217;s&#8230;.&#8221;  He&#8217;d gotten that at the hospital, from the man who&#8217;d stolen it from her hospital  room. It had to be Scully&#8217;s blood, didn&#8217;t it? But if it wasn&#8217;t Scully&#8217;s blood,  whose was it? Someone who was closely related to Mulder&#8230; Samantha?<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Oh my God.&#8221; Mulder forced himself to take  a deep breath. &#8220;I thought it was Scully&#8217;s. Maybe it wasn&#8217;t. I&#8217;ll check into  it. Can I take this?&#8221; He held up the DNA test results.<\/p>\n<p>Langly nodded. &#8220;I&#8217;ve got other copies.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder folded the printout and stuffed it into  his jacket pocket. Blindly, he turned to leave.<\/p>\n<p>Langly&#8217;s voice stopped him at the door. &#8220;Mulder?  I&#8217;m sorry. I thought you would want to know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder turned back, tried once again to force  a smile. But he couldn&#8217;t get a word past his dry throat.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mulder, will you quit staring at me like that? You&#8217;re making me nervous.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder started. &#8220;Sorry. I was thinking.&#8221; <em>Searching  your face for the slightest resemblance to me or anyone in my family. Wondering  how the hell I&#8217;m going to ask you to take a DNA test with me.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Thinking about what? Does this have anything  to do with what Langly wanted?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Sort of. Scully, if I asked you to do something&#8230;  strange, not ask any questions, just do it, would you?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She raised an eyebrow. &#8220;How strange?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Well&#8230; come with me to a lab, and have blood  drawn for a DNA test.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The eyebrow lifted even further. &#8220;No questions?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Once we get the results, I&#8217;ll tell you everything.  It&#8217;s probably nothing. I don&#8217;t want to say anything until I know for sure.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully regarded him thoughtfully. Mulder could  see the curiosity sparkling behind her blue eyes; she was itching to know  what it was about, but she did not ask. He watched as she weighed the possibilities,  and made her decision.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;All right. I guess I can spare you a few minutes  and little blood.&#8221; There was an amused quirk at the corners of her mouth.  &#8220;I&#8217;m going to be dying of curiosity until we get the results.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder found it difficult to return her smile.  <em>If we get the same results that Langly did, you&#8217;ll probably wish you didn&#8217;t  know.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>All the way back to FBI headquarters from the Lone Gunman offices, Mulder  had worried over what to do. Obviously, he had to confirm Langly&#8217;s test results;  that was the first thing to do. He had pondered whether to go to the FBI labs  or a private laboratory. The FBI&#8217;s DNA analysis unit was the best, no doubt  about that; it was also the fastest. But Mulder&#8217;s paranoia had reached new  heights since his father was killed, and he himself had nearly been incinerated.  He no longer &#8220;trusted no one&#8221;\u00e2\u20ac\u201dhe now actively distrusted everyone. Except  Scully, of course, although in his darkest moments he occasionally suspected  even her. And perhaps the Lone Gunmen, who, while not exactly white knights,  were too iconoclastic and paranoid themselves to participate in anyone else&#8217;s  plots. If, somehow, he was being set up, his enemies would expect him to go  to the FBI labs. Test results could disappear or be altered. There were black  ops moles within the FBI\u00e2\u20ac\u201done had to look no farther than Alex Krycek for  evidence of that.<\/p>\n<p>And, if the results did show some sort of genetic  relationship between him and Scully, he did not want that information in the  FBI&#8217;s files.<\/p>\n<p>There were several private laboratories in  Washington that did DNA testing. The director of Quaid-Markham Laboratories  owed Mulder a favor. Mulder had called Don Markham on his cellular while still  en route to the J. Edgar Hoover Building, and wheedled an immediate appointment  for himself and Scully.<\/p>\n<p>Scully remained silent all through the ride  to Quaid-Markham. Whatever questions she must have been dying to ask she kept  firmly to herself. Her faith in him, her willingness to play along even as  she bit her lip to keep her curiosity in check, soothed Mulder&#8217;s raw nerves.<\/p>\n<p><em>I don&#8217;t know what I would do without you,  Scully. What will it do to us, if this turns out to be true?<\/em> Several times,  he nearly turned the car around and drove back to FBI headquarters. <em>Sorry,  Scully. It was just a bad joke of Langly&#8217;s.<\/em> But he knew that it would  burn away at him until he knew the truth. He hoped with all his heart that  Markham&#8217;s results would show them to be just two ordinary, unrelated people.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Mulder watched in fascination as the lab technician&#8217;s needle slid beneath  the translucent skin inside Scully&#8217;s elbow. It was a strange, intimate moment  that had Mulder so keyed up that he flinched, letting out a tiny yelp when  the needle pierced his own arm. Amusement danced in Scully&#8217;s eyes as she bit  her lip, this time to keep from laughing at his discomfiture. Mulder laughed  weakly, the tension broken. &#8220;Do I get a lollipop?&#8221; he asked, as the technician  bandaged his arm.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You were a very good boy,&#8221; the woman murmured  into his ear, smoothing his bandage.<\/p>\n<p>Scully giggled, and everything seemed achingly  normal.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Mulder made it through the next few days by going under the assumption that  the blood sample he&#8217;d given to Langly was not, in fact, Scully&#8217;s. The man  he&#8217;d taken the test tube from had been in Scully&#8217;s hospital room; blood drawn  from her had disappeared. Mulder had followed the man to the hospital parking  garage, and fought with him. In the struggle, the test tube had been dropped.  He&#8217;d gone back after the fight to soak up a few drops of the spilled blood  with his handkerchief. If it wasn&#8217;t Scully&#8217;s blood, whose was it? Could the  man have been carrying more than one test tube of blood? Could Mulder&#8217;s blood  have gotten mixed in, somehow? Or was Langly just less competent than he thought?  There must be a hundred explanations for his results turning out the way they  did. Once they&#8217;d gotten the results from Quaid-Markham, he&#8217;d go back to Langly  to try to figure it out.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Dr. Markham himself presented them with the test results in his office ten  days later. &#8220;Agent Scully, I understand you&#8217;re a forensic pathologist, so  you should be able to read these.&#8221; He slid the reports across his desk to  her.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m not a specialist in DNA analysis, but&#8230;.&#8221;  Scully&#8217;s voice trailed off as she stared at the two printouts. All the color  drained from her face. &#8220;This isn&#8217;t possible. There must be some sort of mistake.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I assure you, Agent Scully, there has been  no mistake. We ran the tests several times, with fresh samples each time.  I have to admit, the results surprised me. I hadn&#8217;t realized that you and  Agent Mulder were brother and sister.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;We&#8217;re not,&#8221; Scully insisted numbly. &#8220;There&#8217;s  no way. Distant cousins, possibly, although that isn&#8217;t likely&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Not distant,&#8221; Dr. Markham said firmly. &#8220;The  tests indicate siblings. Or parent and child, although that&#8217;s obviously impossible.  There&#8217;s virtually a fifty percent match of genetic material. The odds against  that occurring on a random basis are astronomical.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully stared at the printouts, as if willing  them to rearrange themselves under her insistent gaze. Then she stared at  Mulder, her face a mask of shock and disbelief and pleading demand that he  explain to her how this could be.<\/p>\n<p>But Mulder&#8217;s shock was barely less than Scully&#8217;s.  He&#8217;d managed to convince himself, somehow, that Langly&#8217;s tests were a mistake,  had to be a mistake, and that Markham&#8217;s test would prove that, and that would  be the end of it. The whole thing was just too unbelievable to be true. Now  what were they going to do?<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>They sat in the car, both too stunned to go back to work. Long minutes of  silence passed, before Scully finally spoke.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;All right, Mulder, from the beginning. I assume  this started with Langly.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder swallowed, cleared his throat. &#8220;Yes.  I&#8217;d given him a blood sample after being dosed with LSDM in Franklin. I wanted  to see what he could come up with on it. And I gave him a sample of your blood  while you were in the hospital last year. For reasons known only to Langly,  he decided to run a DNA comparison on the two samples. He got the same results  as Markham.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;So the Lone Gunmen think I&#8217;m your sister.&#8221;  Her mouth curled in distaste.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder knew that she knew as well as he did  that this was the least of their concerns. She was just fastening on a side  issue because the real implications were still too frightening to consider.  &#8220;Maybe Frohike will leave you alone now.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>It was a very weak joke, but it served its  purpose. Scully choked out a small laugh. Then she sobered. &#8220;Mulder, I&#8217;m not  Samantha.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know.&#8221; How could he not consider that possibility,  when being told that Scully was his sister? But\u00e2\u20ac\u201d&#8221;You don&#8217;t look anything  like her.&#8221; His sister had been dark-haired, and long-limbed and scrawny, like  him. &#8220;You&#8217;re older than she is. She disappeared when you were nine. While  you were&#8230; missing, your mother told me stories about you when you were six&#8230;  eight&#8230; and when you were just a baby. Now, unless your whole family&#8217;s in  on the conspiracy,&#8221; he laughed to show her his paranoia had not extended to  considering that a possibility, &#8220;you never lived in Chilmark and you never  called me &#8216;Foxy Loxy&#8217; and we never played Stratego&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His throat constricted suddenly. He clutched  at the steering wheel, willing the memories away. <em>Samantha&#8230;.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Scully laid a gentle hand on his arm. &#8220;Mulder.  Look, let&#8217;s&#8230; let&#8217;s just forget this is us we&#8217;re talking about. Let&#8217;s just  treat it like any other case. We&#8217;ve got two people who just found out they&#8217;re  probably related. How do we find out what happened?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder took a deep breath, looked at Scully  and nodded. &#8220;Okay.&#8221; Scully was right. Calm, methodical detective work. That  was how they&#8217;d deal with this. &#8220;All right. If we are brother and sister, that  means that one of us is adopted. Or both.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve seen my birth certificate. My mother  has told me stories about the night I was born. I don&#8217;t think my parents would  lie to me about something like that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then, four years before you were born, do  you think your mother had a child that she put up for adoption?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully&#8217;s brow creased. She pressed her lips  together for a moment before answering. &#8220;You were born in October of Nineteen-sixty.  My parents were married in June of Sixty-one.&#8221; She shook her head. &#8220;I don&#8217;t  know, I suppose it&#8217;s possible that she got pregnant before she was married  and gave the child up, but\u00e2\u20ac\u201dit seems so fantastic!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Well, if my mother had another child right  before Samantha, I think I would have noticed.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;There has to be some other explanation.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You mean, maybe my mother and your father  had an affair? Or vice versa? Twice? And took turns keeping the kid?&#8221; Mulder  couldn&#8217;t suppress an almost-hysterical giggle.<\/p>\n<p>Scully also let out a squeaky laugh. &#8220;Or our  parents are really two sets of identical twins, and they just never told us.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Maybe they don&#8217;t know they&#8217;re related. Maybe  they were separated at birth and put up for adoption&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>They dissolved into helpless giggles. It was  nerves, and they both knew it, but it was a relief not to take the thing quite  so seriously.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder sobered first, staring down into his  lap. &#8220;Scully, I don&#8217;t know how I can ask my mother any of this right now.&#8221;  Barely a month since her ex-husband was killed, and six months since her long-missing  daughter turned up, only to be told that the girl was dead, and not really  Samantha, anyway. &#8221; &#8216;Guess what, Mom, I lost Samantha again, but now I think  Scully&#8217;s my sister.&#8217; She&#8217;ll have me in a straight-jacket. If she doesn&#8217;t end  up in one first, herself.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully stared out the car window. &#8220;Mulder&#8230;  I know the search for truth is very important to you, but\u00e2\u20ac\u201ddo we really need  to pursue this? I can&#8217;t help thinking that this might be something better  left alone.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Could you seriously just walk away from this,  and never know the truth?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What truth?&#8221; Scully turned to Mulder, scowling.  &#8220;I love both my parents very much. And they are my parents, no matter what  any genetic tests might say. I don&#8217;t want to go to my mother with this any  more than you do. I can&#8217;t picture anything but harm coming from it. If my  parents, or yours, do have some secret in their past\u00e2\u20ac\u201dwhy not let them keep  it?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;But Scully, if we are brother and sister&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then we&#8217;d better not get married. I don&#8217;t  think that was exactly in the cards, anyway, was it? Other than that, I don&#8217;t  see that it changes anything.&#8221; She spat out the words, her blue eyes flashing.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder recoiled from her vehemence, blinking  away the sudden stinging in his eyes. He wasn&#8217;t quite sure why her words hurt  so much. It certainly wasn&#8217;t that he harbored any secret fantasies of marrying  her&#8230; or that he was so desperate for a sister, he&#8217;d destroy what was left  of his family to try to make her into one&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>Scully softened at once. &#8220;Mulder, I&#8217;m sorry.  I didn&#8217;t mean that. I&#8217;d be proud to have you for a brother. I just&#8230; can&#8217;t  believe any of this.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You saw the DNA analysis.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I saw two pieces of paper. Tests can be faked,  you know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Scully, why would anyone go to the trouble  of trying to make me believe you&#8217;re my sister? And how could they have done  it? Remember, Langly found the connection first. Now we&#8217;ve got independent  corroboration.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I can&#8217;t believe you&#8217;re taking all of this  at face value. Where&#8217;s the famous Mulder paranoia? I can think of several  reasons why they&#8217;d want to shake you up, send you off on a wild goose chase  for false information, and if you&#8217;ll give me a minute, I&#8217;ll think of a reasonable  scenario for how they did it, too.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder sighed. &#8220;You could be right. But I don&#8217;t  think I can just ignore this. I want to know the truth.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then let&#8217;s investigate. Quietly. I&#8217;ll look  into our birth records. You check out Quaid-Markham.&#8221; She put a hand on his  arm. &#8220;We&#8217;d better get back to work.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He nodded and started the car. As she had said,  just treat it like any other case. They were investigators; that was their  job. They ought to be able to verify the truth or falsity of the DNA profiles  easily enough.<\/p>\n<p>They&#8217;d deal with what they found when they  found it.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Scully dropped her purse and coat on the couch as she entered her apartment,  then walked over to her desk and picked up the photograph of her father sitting  there. Captain William Scully, in his dress whites, stared proudly out of  the frame at her. Eighteen months since he had died, she still felt the urge  to telephone him at times like these, and the pain of not being able to. Not  that she would have told him about what had happened. She just wanted to hear  his voice.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Hello, Ahab,&#8221; she said softly. &#8220;I thought  about you today.&#8221; She imagined a smile on those stern features. &#8220;Well, I think  about you every day, but today something happened&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She pictured Mulder&#8217;s face next to her father&#8217;s.  Their features couldn&#8217;t be more dissimilar. &#8220;How would you like another son,  Dad? He has some crazy ideas, but he&#8217;s very smart. And he has a good heart,  if you can get past the pain he&#8217;s been through.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully sighed, and put the picture back in  its place. &#8220;I wish you&#8217;d had the chance to meet him, Dad.&#8221; She&#8217;d only been  Mulder&#8217;s partner for about four months when her father had died\u00e2\u20ac\u201dthere hadn&#8217;t  yet been an occasion for him to meet her parents. She wondered how they would  have gotten along. Her father disapproved of her decision just to join the  FBI\u00e2\u20ac\u201dwhat would he have thought of Mulder&#8217;s penchant for wild speculation  and unbelievable theories? Or of Mulder&#8217;s obsession with a sister who had  disappeared more than twenty years ago? <em>You can&#8217;t live in the past,<\/em> her father would say, brusquely, whenever she or her brothers or sister complained  about past grievances &#8211; even those mere days or weeks old. Unhappy occurrences  were to be promptly dealt with, and stoically forgotten.<\/p>\n<p>She returned to the couch, stepping out of  her shoes and sitting down. &#8220;I think of him as a brother already. I&#8217;m closer  to him than many brothers and sisters. I wouldn&#8217;t mind if it were true, if  nothing else changed. But it doesn&#8217;t just affect Mulder and me. It&#8217;s you and  Mom, and Mulder&#8217;s parents, and the rest of our families. I wish he would just  let it go. But he won&#8217;t. That&#8217;s one thing you and he have in common, Dad.  A great love for the truth.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She leaned back and took a deep breath, staring  blankly ahead. &#8220;Only with Mulder, I&#8217;m afraid it&#8217;s going to destroy us all.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>The next morning, Mulder, yawning, opened his front door to pick up the morning  paper. Still yawning, he almost didn&#8217;t notice the small slip of paper that  fluttered from between the pages to the floor. Thinking it was an advertising  insert, he reached down to pick it up.<\/p>\n<p>There was an address written on the slip of  paper, and a string of letters and numbers that looked like a computer password.  He sighed. A message from X? He was tempted to just throw it away. After their  last meeting, he&#8217;d been determined to associate with X no longer. But this  wasn&#8217;t association, it was just information. There was no way to know its  source for certain. He&#8217;d better check it out.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Mulder and Scully pulled up in front of the building. It was a run-down warehouse  in a dusty, sparsely populated area; windowless, unpainted concrete with a  steel-encased door. Since breaking and entering seemed to be the order of  the day, they had waited until two A.M. to make their approach.<\/p>\n<p>An ordinary padlock held the door shut. Mulder  had boltcutters in his trunk, but didn&#8217;t expect them to be necessary. He pulled  a leather case from his jeans pocket, selected a picklock, and went to work.  Scully kept a lookout while Mulder eased the lock open. The streets remained  silent and empty. The only sound was the quiet scraping of Mulder&#8217;s picklock  sliding against the tumblers of the lock, then the &#8220;snick&#8221; of the lock springing  open. Mulder gave Scully the ghost of a smile, then pulled the heavy, counter-weighted  door to the side.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>At first glance, it was just another warehouse\u00e2\u20ac\u201dconcrete floor, wooden support  beams, rows of metal shelving and assorted cardboard boxes. But across the  back wall, several wooden tables held an impressive array of electronic equipment,  including a stack of CPUs and a computer monitor. Mulder and Scully prowled  once around the warehouse space, shining their flashlights into every corner,  to make sure there were no traps or other items of interest lurking, before  zeroing in on the computer.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder switched on the monitor and then the  CPUs, one by one, and waited for the boot sequence to complete. Then he stood,  running a finger along his chin, while the console requested:<\/p>\n<p><tt>login name:<\/tt><\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You said he gave you the password&#8230;.&#8221; Scully  began.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;But not the login name.&#8221; Mulder chewed his  lower lip.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s Unix, isn&#8217;t it?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder nodded. Pages from a Unix user&#8217;s manual  flipped past in his mind&#8217;s eye. Slowly, he smiled. Then he bent to type <tt>root.<\/tt><\/p>\n<p>The computer responded,<\/p>\n<p><tt>password:<\/tt><\/p>\n<p>Now Mulder entered the password from the slip  of paper.<\/p>\n<p>And was rewarded with a # prompt.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder grinned. &#8220;Okay, let&#8217;s see what we&#8217;ve  got.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>With a large, sturdy cardboard box conscripted  to act as a chair, Mulder sat hunched before the console. He searched his  photographic memory for the arcane commands that would allow him to explore  the system. Most of the files seemed to be system files; others were non-text  files with obscure names. Finally, he found something he recognized to be  a database file. The filename meant nothing to him, but he had to start somewhere.  He called up the database and began to search through the entries.<\/p>\n<p><tt> <\/tt><\/p>\n<p><tt>Subj. 1001 Alexander, Neal. 1947. Math savant,  psi. Married subj. 1203, 1969. Offspring 2 (Subj. 1448, 1449) <\/tt><\/p>\n<p><tt>Subj. 1002 Arvid, Lee. 1944. Physics, chess  master. Unmarried. Samples taken, 1968. Instabilities detected, no cross. <\/tt><\/p>\n<p><tt>Subj. 1003 Ashe, Karen. 1951. Psi, eidetic  memory. Married subj. 1123, 1961. No offspring. Samples taken, 1964. Cross  Subj. 1297 (Subj. 1530)<br \/>\n<\/tt><\/p>\n<p>Mulder sat back. &#8220;Scully?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What is it?&#8221; She had wandered away from the  computers, inspecting the other electronic equipment, while Mulder searched  the files. Now she came to stand behind him, and peer at the screen over his  shoulder.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It looks like some kind of registry. A record  of people with certain kinds of abilities, and their children.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;&#8216;Samples taken,'&#8221; she read. &#8220;What kind of  samples?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Looks like the ones who didn&#8217;t get married  or have children. Sperm and ova samples?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully wrinkled her nose. &#8220;That makes it sound  like some kind of breeding program.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder looked over his shoulder at her. In  the pale light of the console screen, his face was grey. He was suddenly very  uneasy. &#8220;A breeding program. Run by whom?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;And why did your informant send you here to  find it?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder turned back to the console. He was sure  he was not going to like what he found. His fingers trembled as he entered  the search commands. Alpha search, on subject name field, last name Mulder.<\/p>\n<p><tt> <\/tt><\/p>\n<p><tt>Subj. 1084. Mulder, William. 1937. Eidetic  memory, high IQ. Married subj. 1211, 1958. Offspring 2 (Subj. 1559, 1560*)  Note: offspring to be crossed. See 1560. <\/tt><\/p>\n<p><tt>Subj. 1559. Mulder, Fox. 1960. Eidetic memory,  intuitive , high IQ. Unmarried. Samples taken, 1994. Note: Do Not Kill order  registered, 1990. To be crossed with 1560. Marriage to be arranged, if possible. <\/tt><\/p>\n<p><tt>Subj. 1560*. Mulder, Samantha. 1965. High IQ,  psi. Unmarried. Samples taken, 1994. Note: Do Not Kill order registered, 1993.  To be crossed with 1559. Marriage to be arranged, if possible. Due to human  incest taboo, removed from home 1973 to be raised separately. Surgery and  hypnosis performed to reassign identity. (See also subj. 1560, Scully, Dana.) <\/tt><\/p>\n<p>The words burned themselves into Mulder&#8217;s brain.  He cursed his photographic memory, knowing he would never escape the sight  of those words on that screen. A breeding program&#8230;. He and Samantha were  breeding stock. The aliens wanted him to marry his sister, so they took her  and turned her into someone else, someone he would not think he was related  to. Someone he would learn to trust, and, if the aliens had their way, someone  he would eventually marry and with whom he would have children. Samantha was  Scully. Surgically altered, hypnotized to make her think she&#8217;d always been  Dana Scully. Her family&#8217;s memories had no doubt been altered, too, to make  them accept her as their own. Had there ever been a real Dana Scully? And  what had happened to her? Had she been raised somewhere else, or just discarded  because she didn&#8217;t fit the profile the aliens wanted?<\/p>\n<p>Mulder stood, stumbling against the box, kicking  it out of his way. He turned and ran, wildly, towards the door, and out into  the street, where he fell to his hands and knees, vomiting into the gutter.<\/p>\n<p>Presently, he felt Scully&#8217;s hand on his shoulder,  as she knelt at his side. &#8220;Mulder? Are you all right?&#8221; she asked softly. But  he could not answer her; his stomach still twisted, and he continued to retch  and cough. She stroked his back until his stomach spasms finally subsided.  Then he pushed himself unsteadily to his feet, and stumbled back against the  concrete wall of the warehouse. Scully stood at his side, hand on his shoulder.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Scully, what are we going to do now?&#8221; Tears  stung his eyes; he forced them back with the heels of his hands pressed roughly  to his face.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mulder, those files aren&#8217;t necessarily the  truth.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What does it take to convince you? Look at  the evidence. You&#8217;re always telling me, you have to go by the evidence. Well,  we&#8217;ve got two separate DNA tests and a secret government file&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Tests can be faked. Anyone can type words  into a computer. I haven&#8217;t seen anything yet that convinces me that I&#8217;m really  your sister. Do you really think eight years of memories can be replaced that  easily? That I could be so completely changed, and never see any evidence  of it? That my parents, my family could be fooled into thinking that a complete  stranger is their daughter? Mulder, it just doesn&#8217;t make sense.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;The aliens have medical techniques far beyond  ours. We saw that with Duane Barry. And you, with what happened to you while  you were gone. It explains so many things.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s a very clever story. And carefully calculated  to hit all your hot spots. And to destroy you. Mulder, you can&#8217;t let them  do this to you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I can&#8217;t just&#8230; decide&#8230; not to believe it  because I don&#8217;t want it to be true.&#8221; He reached out and touched her cheek.  &#8220;Scully&#8230;.&#8221; He searched her face. &#8220;Samantha&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She pulled away from him angrily. &#8220;Mulder,  I am not Samantha!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You see what they&#8217;ve done to me?&#8221; Mulder cried,  his voice nearly a wail. &#8220;They have given me back my sister. And taken her  away from me forever.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s exactly my point,&#8221; Scully said quietly,  urgently. &#8220;They want to stop you from looking for her. What better way, than  to make you think you&#8217;ve found her?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder staggered away, shaking his head. He  went as far as the end of the block, then stood staring into the blackness  of the night. Like a wounded animal, he called out to the darkness.<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;Samantha!&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n<p><a title=\"leap of faith\" href=\"https:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/06\/leap.gif\"><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><a title=\"leap of faith\" href=\"https:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/06\/leap.gif\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/06\/leap.gif\" alt=\"leap of faith\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>He barely remembered getting home. He supposed that Scully must have driven;  he certainly hadn&#8217;t. If they had turned off the computers, collected their  flashlights, locked the warehouse door behind them\u00e2\u20ac\u201dwell, he might or might  not have participated; he had no memory of it. He only knew that he woke on  his couch, still in his jeans and tee-shirt, cold and empty and sick to his  stomach. He did not want to get up and go to work; he could not bear the thought  of forcing food into his churning belly; he most certainly did not want to  think. Yet he had to do all those things. He sighed, wishing with all his  heart that he had just told Langly to buzz off, and he willed himself to survive,  although he didn&#8217;t know how, when his life had been turned upside down.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>He greeted Scully with a shaky but determined smile and made no mention of  the previous night&#8217;s events. He had decided that he had one chance to make  it through the day, by pretending that nothing at all unusual had happened.  It was a denial born of long practice, from the time he was a child. <em>Samantha  is not gone. Mom and Dad are not fighting.<\/em> Now, the litany had changed  to: <em>Scully is not Samantha. I am not alien breeding stock.<\/em> And, of  course, the one that never changed: <em>It is not my fault.<\/em> He didn&#8217;t believe  it now, any more than he did then, but he managed to continue functioning,  by determinedly pretending he did.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Scully felt Mulder&#8217;s eyes on her again. The file sitting open before her  had lain there unread for at least an hour. She glanced up at her partner,  hoping this time he might want to talk, but once again he looked away instantly  and returned his attention to the papers on his desk. She sighed, and tried  to focus her roiling mind on her work. They should be talking about it, she  knew, but she also knew that there was no way to make Mulder talk about something  when he didn&#8217;t want to. His constant staring was beginning to unnerve her,  though.What was he seeing when he looked at her? Was he seeing Samantha? An  alien breeding experiment? Was there anything of Scully in the images in his  mind?<\/p>\n<p>Was there, in fact, a woman of her approximate  age that he didn&#8217;t look at as a possible Samantha? So many years had passed,  his sister would be like a stranger to him now. Perhaps, in some way, it would  be easier for him if Samantha did turn out to be someone he already knew and  cared about. At least he would not have to worry that the past twenty-two  years had turned her into someone so different from his beloved eight-year-old  sister that he could not find a connection with her. Then his loss truly would  be irredeemable.<\/p>\n<p>Scully had often wondered about the personalities  and family relationships that would result in such a long-lived and intense  obsession. What had Samantha been to him, that her disappearance would so  consume his life? Scully loved her brothers and her sister, but she couldn&#8217;t  quite imagine Bill, Jr., for example, dedicating his life to recovering her  if she&#8217;d been taken away at the age of eight. Nor would she have wanted him  to. It didn&#8217;t seem quite healthy to her.<\/p>\n<p>The possibility that she really was Samantha  she refused to even consider. It was obviously a setup of some kind, and as  soon as Mulder had had some time to calm down and think about it, he&#8217;d realize  it too.<\/p>\n<p>He was staring at her again. Again, he looked  away as soon as she glanced up. This time, she was not willing to let it pass.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mulder?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He looked up, swallowing nervously. &#8220;Yeah?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I can&#8217;t keep my mind on this report.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His attempt at a smile failed dismally. &#8220;Me  neither.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Do you want to get some lunch?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He stared at his desk, turning his pencil in  his hand. &#8220;I&#8217;m not hungry. Why don&#8217;t you go ahead?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m not hungry either. I just thought&#8230;.&#8221;  Her voice trailed off at the sight of the desperation in his face. She sighed.  &#8220;Never mind. Maybe later.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He nodded briefly, and hid his face in his  reports.<\/p>\n<p>She returned to trying to read the file on  her desk. The next time she felt him staring at her, she resolutely turned  the page and continued reading.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>At home, finally, Mulder lay sleepless on the couch for hours, occasionally  stirring to find the remote and click through the channels again, never really  caring where the picture ended up. He&#8217;d skipped dinner, just as he&#8217;d skipped  lunch, and he wished he&#8217;d skipped breakfast, too, after the way it had barely  stayed down. He vaguely felt that he should be doing something about it all\u00e2\u20ac\u201dinvestigating, questioning, studying the evidence\u00e2\u20ac\u201dbut he couldn&#8217;t seem  to make his mind settle on anything that wouldn&#8217;t just make things worse.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Three in the morning. Obviously, sleep was out of the picture. Mulder sat  up abruptly and began looking for his shoes. They&#8217;d run out of that warehouse,  stunned, never taking the time to really search it. He would go back now,  and check it out again.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>The neighborhood remained forlorn and deserted. He pulled up behind a dented,  rusting van, listing on one half-empty tire. The streetlight on the corner  had burned out, leaving the building shrouded in darkness.<\/p>\n<p>The padlock was gone from the warehouse door.  Mulder stood with his hand on the latch, considering. Either they had already  emptied the place out and gone, or there was someone in there, working. Either  way, he should just go home. If they&#8217;d cleaned house, there would be nothing  to find. If there was someone there, he&#8217;d have no chance to conduct his search.  He should just go home.<\/p>\n<p>Carefully, he pulled the heavy door open a  few inches. The tracks were well-oiled; it moved silently. He peered into  the darkness &#8211; saw nothing, heard nothing. Slowly, he pushed the door a few  more inches to the side, until he had an opening just wide enough to slip  through. With his gun and flashlight ready, he stepped into the warehouse.<\/p>\n<p>At first glance, the dusty beams, metal shelves,  scattered boxes all seemed the same as last night. He took a few more steps,  aimed his flashlight beam toward the tables at the back.<\/p>\n<p>They were empty. Whispering a curse, he started  to walk to the tables. A pile of cartons at the end of the aisle had not been  there last night.<\/p>\n<p>A scraping noise emerged from the darkness  behind the shelves off to his right.<\/p>\n<p>He whirled toward the sound, gun pointed toward  the noise. &#8220;Federal agent,&#8221; he called out. &#8220;Come out of there, now!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Silence.<\/p>\n<p>He began sweeping the area with his flashlight,  gun still ready, thinking that he was going to feel awfully foolish when he  flushed some scraggly old tomcat out of hiding. But until then, he was not  going to relax. Tomcats did not open padlocks.<\/p>\n<p>There, a flash of motion toward the door. Mulder  dashed back to cut off escape, launched a flying tackle at the body making  a run for the narrow opening in the warehouse door. They both crashed to the  floor, rolling against the door, arms and legs flailing. Mulder couldn&#8217;t hold  onto his flashlight, gun, and the struggling body all at the same time; his  quarry squirmed away and disappeared into the warehouse darkness again.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder pulled himself to his feet. He&#8217;d lost  the flashlight, but still clutched his gun. And his quarry was trapped inside.  No point being subtle any longer. He felt for a light switch along the wall  by the door, found one and flipped it on. The warehouse was bathed in a glare  of flourescent light. He spotted the warehouse&#8217;s other occupant behind a row  of shelves.<\/p>\n<p>He trained his gun on the other, and began  walking slowly towards him. &#8220;I&#8217;m not going to hurt you,&#8221; he said. &#8220;I just  want to talk to you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The man didn&#8217;t move, didn&#8217;t speak\u00e2\u20ac\u201djust stood  silently, waiting, as Mulder approached. Mulder eased past the row of shelves,  into the aisle where the man stood, finally able to get a good look at him.<\/p>\n<p>Alex Krycek.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;You!&#8221;<\/em> Mulder hissed. He strode forward, grabbed Krycek by the throat,  pressing his gun into Krycek&#8217;s side. Krycek flinched, but made no move to  escape.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mulder, I didn&#8217;t\u00e2\u20ac\u201d&#8221; Fingers tightening around  his throat stopped Krycek&#8217;s protest.<\/p>\n<p>With his hand still on Krycek&#8217;s throat, Mulder  carefully pressed his gun barrel into the soft spot behind Krycek&#8217;s left ear,  and marched him to the back of the warehouse, to where the empty tables stood.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What the hell is this, Krycek?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know, Mulder, I\u00e2\u20ac\u201d&#8221; A strangled gurgle,  as Mulder pushed him back against one of the tables. The tabletop caught Krycek  at the back of the thighs; Mulder&#8217;s hand at his throat bent him back. &#8220;I swear,  I didn&#8217;t know you had anything to do with this. They just told me to come  here and pack up some computer equipment, that&#8217;s all I know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Now, why don&#8217;t I believe you?&#8221; Mulder whispered  silkily into Krycek&#8217;s ear. The same ear his gun barrel rested behind.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You know I&#8217;m just a grunt. They don&#8217;t tell  me anything.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Well, you can tell me this. Did you kill my  father?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Krycek&#8217;s face was dark and slick with sweat.  Fear glinted in his eyes. &#8220;No.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder forced him back even farther. Krycek  had to brace his arms on the table to hold himself up; he was half-sitting  on the table.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re lying.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No, I swear, I didn&#8217;t kill him.&#8221; His voice  was a harsh whisper through the rough hand around his throat.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You were there.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I was there, but I didn&#8217;t kill him. Mulder,  he killed himself.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>With a furious growl, Mulder slammed Krycek  back onto the table, head pressed uncomfortably against the concrete wall,  legs flailing helplessly. Mulder climbed onto the table with him, one knee  pressed sharply between Krycek&#8217;s legs, eliciting a frightened yelp. Krycek&#8217;s  hands scrabbled wildly for some sort of purchase, not daring to grab at Mulder.  One hand, finally, clutched at the edge of the table by his head; the other  simply spread flat on the tabletop.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder was possessed by righteous fury. Alex  Krycek had betrayed him, betrayed Scully. Killed his father. Probably killed  Duane Barry, and the tram operator. His sins were deep and cold, and Mulder  wanted him to pay in exquisite pain and terror for every one of them. Nothing  else mattered right now, except Krycek&#8217;s suffering. He was enjoying it far  too much to even entertain the thought of killing him. Maybe later. Maybe  not at all. But there would be pain. His face was mere inches from Krycek&#8217;s,  he could see each tiny rivulet of sweat slip down forehead and cheek, every  frightened twitch and quiver. It was lovely.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder relaxed his hand on Krycek&#8217;s throat  slightly, smiled cruelly at the small relief in Krycek&#8217;s eyes. Then he brought  his gun forward, tapping the barrel against Krycek&#8217;s lips. &#8220;Open up, Alex,&#8221;  he whispered.<\/p>\n<p>Fear bloomed beautifully on Krycek&#8217;s face.  He swallowed, twice, then reluctantly let his lips part. Mulder thrust the  gun barrel deep into Krycek&#8217;s mouth, gagging him. Mulder felt the convulsions  down the length of Krycek&#8217;s body, as he lay next to him on the table. He relaxed  his grip on the gun just enough to allow Krycek to breathe. Krycek&#8217;s mouth  worked, trying to accommodate the width and length of the cold metal. Moisture  filled his eyes. When he pressed them shut, tears dripped down the sides of  his face.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;All right, Alex,&#8221; Mulder said softly. &#8220;I&#8217;m  going to let you tell me what happened with my father. And whatever story  you tell, you&#8217;d better make me believe it. Because if I don&#8217;t, I think I&#8217;ll  let you tell it to him.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Krycek tried to nod; the action only thrust  the gun barrel deeper into his throat, gagging him again. Mulder stroked Krycek&#8217;s  temple with the tenderness of absolute rule, and waited for him to recover  before slowly withdrawing the gun from Krycek&#8217;s mouth.<\/p>\n<p>Krycek coughed and gasped, swallowing, clearly  still tasting the cold gunmetal in his mouth. &#8220;Mulder\u00e2\u20ac\u201d&#8221; His voice was raw  and laced with fear.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder let the gun barrel trail down the side  of Krycek&#8217;s face, from temple to jaw, before bringing it again to rest behind  Krycek&#8217;s ear. &#8220;Tell me how you killed my father, Alex.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t kill him,&#8221; Krycek protested hopelessly.  &#8220;I just went there to eavesdrop. I was supposed to find out what he told you.  I was hiding in the bathroom. Neither of you were ever supposed to know that  I was there.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder brought the gun up, pressed the barrel  against Krycek&#8217;s temple. Krycek&#8217;s face twisted; his eyes shut tightly. A tear  slipped down from the corner of his eye to form a shiny drop on the muzzle  of the gun.<\/p>\n<p>Seconds passed; the trigger was not pulled.  Krycek swallowed hard, and continued. &#8220;When he came into the bathroom, I was  hiding in the shower. I was just going to stay there until he went back out.  But then, he took a bottle of pills out of the medicine cabinet, and poured  the whole thing into his hand.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder remembered his father leaving him, to  go into the bathroom. I&#8217;ve been taking some medication, his father had told  him. Hadn&#8217;t Mulder felt a pang of fear then? Hadn&#8217;t he wondered, just for  a fleeting second, whether his father might be intending to&#8230; ?<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t know what to do. If he killed himself,  and anyone found out that I&#8217;d been there&#8230; I just wanted to stop him. That&#8217;s  why I stepped out of the shower.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;We just stood there and stared at each other.  Neither of us said a thing. Then he smiled, kind of sadly, like he knew he  was caught, and he started to put the pills back into the bottle and turned  to put it back on the sink. I figured I&#8217;d just wait until he went back out  into the living room, and then take off. He splashed some water on his face,  then picked up a towel.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I wasn&#8217;t expecting anything. He caught me  off guard. He whirled around and grabbed my gun\u00e2\u20ac\u201dit was still in my holster,  I&#8217;d never taken it out. I thought he was going to kill me. But no\u00e2\u20ac\u201dhe put  the gun to his own head. It was all over before I had a chance to think. I  grabbed my gun and took off out the window. Ran like hell. That&#8217;s all there  is to it, Mulder, and I swear it&#8217;s the truth.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder found that his gun was shaking in his  hand. It fit. There were no obvious flaws. Could it possibly have happened  that way? &#8220;There were no powder burns on his hand.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;He was holding it with the towel. I don&#8217;t  know if he planned it that way, or if it just worked out like that. I thought  he might have meant to frame me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The towel had been on the floor, to his father&#8217;s  right. The open bottle of pills had been lying on the rug. Blood everywhere.  One shot to the right temple, from very close range. His father was right-handed;  so was Krycek. Krycek could have come up behind him\u00e2\u20ac\u201dor his father could  have held the gun himself. An execution\u00e2\u20ac\u201dor a suicide? Planned on the split  second to implicate Krycek?<\/p>\n<p>Mulder felt the fury drain out of him. True  or not, it was horribly plausible. And there was no way in hell he was ever  going to know for sure which way it had happened.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder released Krycek, slid off the table.  <em>The truth is out there &#8211; <\/em> And it got more slippery every day. Murder  or suicide? Partner or sister? Secret alien-run breeding experiment or carefully  planned disinformation? Alien abduction or a young boy&#8217;s guilt and overheated  imagination? Was anything real and true?<\/p>\n<p>Mulder stumbled past the tables, to sink down  to the cold floor, leaning against the concrete wall. Tears pricked at his  eyes; this time, uncaring, he let them fall.<\/p>\n<p>He thought Krycek would take the opportunity  to escape. Instead, after climbing shakily down from the table, Krycek also  came to sit in the floor against the wall, just out of arm&#8217;s reach, but no  farther than that. He said nothing, just sat and waited, while Mulder gave  in to frustration and horror and grief.<\/p>\n<p>Long minutes passed, filled only with the small  sounds of Mulder&#8217;s quiet weeping. Finally, Mulder lifted his head, and wiped  his face on his sleeve. Krycek, with a small, pained sound, pulled a handkerchief  from his pocket and held it out. Mulder took it and blew his nose.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why are you still here?&#8221; Mulder&#8217;s voice was  thick and nasal.<\/p>\n<p>Krycek sighed. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know. You going to  kill me?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Probably not.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>There was a long pause. &#8220;You know, Mulder,  what I told you when we first met, about following your work at the Academy,  admiring you &#8211; that was the truth. I did feel like that. When they came to  me and told me I could be your partner if I worked for them, I jumped at the  chance. &#8216;Just keep an eye on him,&#8217; they said. I was fooling myself, I guess,  but I didn&#8217;t think it was going to be any more than that. By the time I found  out what working for them really meant, it was too late, I was already in  it up to my ears.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You probably don&#8217;t believe that, and I guess  it wouldn&#8217;t really matter even if you did. I made my decision, and I&#8217;m stuck  with it. Things aren&#8217;t going to change between us. But&#8230; you asked me, so  I&#8217;m telling you. That&#8217;s how it is.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>All Mulder could manage was a weak laugh. &#8220;I  don&#8217;t know what to believe any more. So if you want to tell me you&#8217;ve been  on my side all along, go ahead. I might even believe you. You can even tell  me the sun revolves around the earth, or the sky is falling, and I might believe  that, too.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mulder, what was going on in this place? What  did they have set up here?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder looked at Krycek with numb curiosity.  Had Krycek been chosen specifically for his ability to look young and dumb?  Mulder had a well-known weakness for strays. Even now, Krycek&#8217;s whipped-puppy  attitude was getting to him. He could believe that Krycek was just a naive  kid with a bad case of hero-worship who&#8217;d gotten in over his head. Not that  that excused anything he&#8217;d done. Maybe Mulder was just feeling guilty for  having terrorized him so badly.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You really don&#8217;t know?&#8221; Mulder asked. Krycek  just shrugged.<\/p>\n<p><em>Ten minutes ago, I had my gun shoved down  his throat. It wouldn&#8217;t have taken much to make me pull the trigger,<\/em> Mulder  mused. <em>Now we&#8217;re sitting here chatting, and I&#8217;m blowing my nose in his  handkerchief.<\/em> After the unreal haze of the past few days, he couldn&#8217;t  seem to find it strange. &#8220;They&#8217;re trying to make me think Scully is my sister,  Samantha. And that we&#8217;re both part of some kind of alien breeding program.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Krycek swallowed uneasily.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder grinned. &#8220;You should check the files  under &#8216;K.&#8217; Maybe you&#8217;re in there, too.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Do you really think&#8230; ?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know what I think.&#8221; Who would believe  something like that? Except, maybe, somebody called &#8220;Spooky&#8221; Mulder. &#8220;Two  separate DNA tests showed that we are closely related. And the files in that  computer explained why. If it was a setup, it was a damned good one. And they&#8217;re  going to an awful lot of damned trouble just to gaslight me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Krycek looked at the tables, now bare of equipment,  and the cartons stacked near them. &#8220;I could ask around, I guess. But they  probably won&#8217;t tell me anything.&#8221; He looked back at Mulder, with a rueful  sigh. &#8220;And you wouldn&#8217;t believe anything I told you, anyway.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder shook his head wearily. &#8220;I don&#8217;t believe  anything. It doesn&#8217;t matter any more, it doesn&#8217;t matter what anybody says.  How can I ever believe in anything again? You can tell them they&#8217;ve won. I  give up.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No, Mulder, you can&#8217;t do that! You can&#8217;t give  up.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>It was very touching, really, Mulder thought,  that Krycek should be urging him so earnestly not to give up, after everything  he&#8217;d done to help destroy him. Who was this kid? &#8220;Last year, after the X-Files  were shut down, I thought I&#8217;d hit bottom. I&#8217;d lost faith in myself, in my  beliefs. I thought I couldn&#8217;t get any lower.&#8221; He laughed shortly. &#8220;I was so  wrong. I didn&#8217;t have any idea how far down the bottom was.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;ll get through this, just like you got  through it before. You&#8217;ll find your faith again, and you&#8217;ll go on. I know  you will.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder shook his head. &#8220;There are just too  many lies. I can&#8217;t tell the difference any more. You can&#8217;t depend on the evidence,  you can&#8217;t depend on anything. How am I going to know the truth when I see  it?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;How does anybody know anything? How do you  know the sun&#8217;s going to come up in the morning? How do you know the atoms  in your body aren&#8217;t going to just go flying off into the universe? Evidence  can only tell you so much. When it comes right down to it, everything&#8217;s a  leap of faith. You always had that radar, Mulder, that ability to know what  was real, even when it was something so crazy everybody else thought you were  nuts for believing it. You&#8217;ve still got it, I know you do. You just have to  trust yourself to know it. Don&#8217;t let them &#8211; don&#8217;t let me or anyone else &#8211;  take it away from you.&#8221; Krycek stared at him intently, one fist clenched.  Unwiped tears still tracked his face. The words had just poured out of him,  heedless, and, if Mulder could still tell anything about anybody, sincere.  And there was no possible reason for Krycek to be saying any of it, unless  he believed it.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder pushed himself unsteadily to his feet.  He stepped over to Krycek, reached out his hand. Krycek flinched, still expecting  to be hit, then forced a sick laugh and took Mulder&#8217;s arm, and allowed himself  to be helped to his feet.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m going to go home and get some sleep,&#8221;  Mulder said. &#8220;I expect you should, too.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Krycek glanced around uneasily. &#8220;I&#8217;ve still  got to get this&#8230; stuff&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Mulder nodded. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know if I&#8217;ll see you  again. If I do&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know. Nothing changes.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s changed. Krycek, about my father &#8211; I  believe you. You&#8217;ve still got a lot to answer for &#8211; and I hope some day you  will. But that part of the score is settled.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Krycek swallowed. &#8220;Thanks.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p><em>I should arrest him,<\/em> he thought. But  what good would that do? There was no evidence to prove Krycek had done anything,  and even if there was, his handlers would just get him off anyway.<\/p>\n<p>Mulder left him there.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>There was only time for a few hours&#8217; sleep before he had to get ready for  work. Still, he felt much better in the morning. Good enough to greet Scully  cheerfully with fresh coffee and a bag of donuts when she arrived and found  him already hard at work.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Good morning. You seem&#8230; better today.&#8221; Scully  allowed.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m fine.&#8221; Scully, however, was still pale,  with dark smudges like bruises beneath tired blue eyes. &#8220;Are you all right?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She smiled faintly. &#8220;I didn&#8217;t sleep very well.  But I&#8217;ll be all right. You know, people used to tell me how much I looked  like my father&#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Scully, I think the whole thing was a setup,  right from the start. I went back to that warehouse last night, and they&#8217;d  already cleaned it out. I don&#8217;t know how they got Langly onto it, but I&#8217;m  going to call him later\u00e2\u20ac\u201das soon as I know he won&#8217;t bite my head off for  waking him up &#8211; and see if I can get to the bottom of it. I&#8217;ll check on Markham,  too. We&#8217;ll figure it out.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully&#8217;s smile widened. &#8220;You were pretty sure  it was true. What made you change your mind?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Alex Krycek, he thought. But he didn&#8217;t say  it. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know. I thought about it a lot. Maybe I just don&#8217;t want to believe  it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What if we check into it, and all the evidence  is against us?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know.&#8221; Mulder paused, and chewed his  lip thoughtfully. &#8220;I&#8217;ve been thinking about that, too. I guess&#8230; maybe I  don&#8217;t think it would be so bad if you were my sister.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Scully walked over to him, put her hand on  his shoulder. &#8220;Mulder, blood isn&#8217;t the only thing that can make a family.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Just as long as it doesn&#8217;t tear us apart.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She gave him a reassuring smile, then returned  to her desk. Mulder watched her contentedly. Scully was one of a kind. She wasn&#8217;t Samantha. She couldn&#8217;t be.<\/p>\n<p>She couldn&#8217;t be.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.ratandfox.net\/ff\/the-best-lies-part-two-picture-in-a-wallet\/\">continue to part two<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>ADULTS ONLY Contains explicit male\/male sex. Pairing: Mulder\/Krycek Summary: A DNA test sends Mulder on a quest to discover the truth about his sister, leading to a mysterious database and an old enemy. 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